Tiny Dancer

Evrything that I've read and that people have told me about having to pee every 30 minutes when pregnant has turned into my unfortunate reality. I get up every hour when I'm sleeping and go about every half hour throughout the day! How am I ever supposed to get anything done when my babies constanly dancing on my bladder??

Ode to my wonderful HUBBY

Looking back over the last couple of months worth of blogs I've written...I notice they are ALL about me and the baby! Unbelievable...how self absorbed can one person possibly be?? Believe it or not, Lane actually IS in the picture, which is the only reason why I'm able to get up each day with a smile (or not) and know that everything is going to work out ok in the end. He's been such an amazing help to me during the last 15 weeks and I feel like he needs some recognition for that, I'm sure it hasn't been easy for him dealing with his pregnant hormonal wife! This list is by all means not meant to be all encompassing, just a brief look into some of the ways he's been such a huge support and encouragement:

~Right off the bat, when the home pregnancy test I took at 5am turned positive,I was in shock and didn't know how to feel. It was Lane's excited reaction that set my mind at ease and gave me an immediate positive outlook on this huge life changing event.

~He has been so incredible supporting my decisions about where and under what circumstances I feel most comfortable pertaining to pregnancy care and delivery.

~Of course he's been much kinder to me than I've been to myself regarding all the changes my body is going through. Always there to remind me of the miraculous reasons my body is reacting and changing the way it is.

~We can't forget the chores he's had to pick up since I've become pregnant; cleaning cat litter (ALL the time since my sense of smell is super sized these days). For the first couple of months there, he'd have to do just about everything else around the house as well seeing as I could hardly drag myself out of bed to go to the bathroom! Yet, he did it all with very LITTLE complaining;)

~I don't know how many times I've sent him to the store in search of that one magic food item that will fulfill my every want and desire at that moment!

~Speaking of food, he's been such a good sport about forgoing one of our favorite foods SUSHI! I owe him big time once our little one is here...

~Maybe this one should have gone first, because I think, in his mind at least, he shows his love for me and the baby the most by getting up each and every day to go to work and provide for us. That single act alone gives me such a sense of safety and security that cannot be replaced. Lane's dependablility is overwhelming and makes me love him that much more than I already do!

~Lane balances me out so well and though this one spills over into our lives - pregnant or not - it's still an important and key way that he adds so much to my life...and even more important now that I'm pregnant and even MORE unbalanced!

~Bottom line, I couldn't ever imagine my life without my WONDERFUL HUSBAND!

BUMP!

I am finally starting to see some outward signs of the miracle I'm carrying! Although I could swear I saw a change the day I found out I was pregnant, there's now enough evidence (I think) that people who know me can see the changes happening. I'm coming up on 15 weeks and I wish there was more to show for it...but I keep hearing that first time moms don't really, really, REALLY show until more like 5-6 months, unfortunately. But since I've started taking some pictures of my ever expanding tummy, I figured I'd share! What other time in life is a person actually eager and willing to broadcast their stomach getting bigger and bigger?

The incredible HEART

Well I heard my babies heartbeat yesterday, for the second time actually, but yesterday it was much louder and sounded a lot stronger to me! Of course it's because the baby is getting bigger, making the heart easier to find and hear - and man is that thing going! Doc told me that little heart is beating at about 155 bpm! It just amazes me that the heart that will continuously sustain my baby through his or her entire life is already hard at work! If my baby only weighs a couple of ounces, at best, that heart can't be more than a fraction of an ounce at best! Ok, I know I'm obsessing now...but it's just so incredible to me...this whole idea of a person growing inside of me, I'm still not used to it! Of course there's nothing like actually hearing the sound of my child's heartbeat to make the whole idea of baby real...I'm 3 1/2 months along and will be able to find out the gender in just a few short weeks! However, I have myself pretty convinced we're having a little girl...

Oh the days...

Looking back on the days of my first trimester, now that it's coming to a close, I'm amazed that I'm already 1/3 of the way through my pregnancy and, thank goodness, the worst part is over! My little baby is actually looking like a baby and I'll know within a month if we'll be welcoming a baby boy or girl into our family! I cannot believe how fast it's all going!! No matter how impatient I may be to just hold my baby NOW, God is wise in giving us the entire 9 months to prepare. So much to prepare myself for...already I feel such a huge responsibility of being this child's sole protector and provider. Once that baby is in my arms, and out into this big, scary and hurtful world, I know those feelings of protection will only increase. I'm so thankful that I have been blessed with such a wonderful husband to be my partner in the overwhelming task of raising a moral, strong, healthy and godly child in such an amoral, sick, unhealthy and ungodly world. And to add to that, we have been given amazing families, friends and a wonderful church for back up! SIX MORE MONTHS!! Though it sounds so far away to me at this point, and I'm counting down the moments, I am thankful for this time of excitement and anticipation:)