Patience is a Virtue I am long overdue to learn

Today is exactly one week POST my "official" due date. Yesterday I met with my midwife for my and babies weekly check-up and all is well...all except that she's showing no real signs of being in any hurry to enter the real world. At 41 weeks my patience has worn pretty thin, considering that if I was doing this the way 99% of women in our society have children, I would probably have been induced by now...or at least have had the option. Thank the Lord I am NOT doing it that way!! I don't know if I would have the will power to decline...

Anyways, there are things that can be done naturally to get things going and I went on a mad search through town yesterday for an herb, blue cohosh (NOT BLACK, BLUE), that my midwife said is supposed to kick start labor if baby is ready. Truckee Meadow Herbs is the ONLY place in town that carries this stuff, by the way. So here I sit, sipping my red raspberry leaf tea mixed with 10-15 drops of blue cohosh every half hour in an attempt to coax my baby out in my timing. Then, suddenly, I have to wonder...what is my reasoning for trying to force her to come before she is ready? Impatience. Well, that sounds like the epitomy of selfishness once the thought has been said out loud, or written down for that matter. Unbelievable...here I am, on the verge of motherhood, when all that should matter to me is the health and wellbeing of my baby, and all I can think about is my own stupid schedule, timing and convenience. Considering the fact that all babies eventually come, there is obviously a perfect time for labor to begin and that time depends on when baby is fully ready to enter the world. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? If this blue cohosh doesn't do anything today, I'm not doing another thing to supposedly "induce" labor. She'll come when she's good and ready. Seriously...I need to get a grip.